the whole “writing my birth story” thing is not going as i planned. every time i sit down and try to write it, something distracts me.
so this is hereby a notice saying that my birth story is “coming soon.”
but anyway, i’ll tell you other things for you noble followers that have been waiting patiently for a post!
sawyer is SUCH a good baby. he really only cries if he’s hungry or if he’s got a dirty diaper. he gives amazing kisses (although sometimes gives a little too much tongue) and he is an excellent cuddler! he can already pick his head up when he’s on his tummy for tummy time and he can keep it up too! he’s so strong! ❤ my little boy even sleeps through the night sometimes, but i can’t let him do that right now because i have to make sure that he’s eating enough.
we’ve seen the doctor multiple times a week for the last two weeks of his life which is SUPER annoying, but i guess it’s for a good reason. baby boy hasn’t been gaining a lot of weight. he should be back up to his birth weight by now but he’s not. he’s only 9 pounds, as of yesterday’s doctor’s appointment. now we have another one next wednesday and if he’s not back up to 9 pounds 9 ounces or more by then, i guess something isn’t going right with my breastfeeding and i’ll probably have to stop…
this is extremely depressing because, as you may or may not know, i had a plan to breastfeed for at least 2 years and now it hasn’t even been three weeks and i might already have to stop… i don’t understand; i went through my entire pregnancy hearing from everyone “breast is best” and all that jazz, but yet i’m somehow not doing good enough for my baby to gain weight… he even has good poops and pees and everything, but yet i’m not doing enough for him…? i don’t understand.
besides this, i’ve been extremely happy lately. which is good because who likes to be sad?! i don’t have time to be sad when i’m taking care of my precious bundle of smiles that is sawyer :)! i never knew i could love somebody this much! he is the most perfect thing that i’ve ever seen and i’m so happy that i got picked to be his mommy ❤